The second scariest movie I've ever seen was The Blob. I mean the 1958 version that, should I have the guts to watch it today, is probably completely ridiculous. But I don't, so I'll never know. I wasn't alive in 1958 so I must have seen it sometime in the 70's. Maybe Monster Theater. No idea. No idea when it scarred me forever but it had to be young.
What terrifies me about The Blob is the inevitability. I don't know if this scares other people, but looming disaster with no way out is scarier than sharks. Or maybe it's the same as sharks.
The Blob might be the scariest movie I've ever seen except its impact on me was more subtle than Jaws. After Jaws, I stopped swimming. And going near bodies of water. Including bathtub water. Never know where a shark will come from. No, I haven't seen any Sharknado movies. I have enough problems with my brain.
Life has become The Blob. Do you feel it? No matter what we do, we can't seem to get away from the danger. Just about everything nowadays is dangerous. Either plain deadly or life-ruin destructive. There's no end in sight.
One of the things I love about being American is our absolute belief that there's always a way to win. A real way, too, not a cheater way. There's always an out that gets not only the prize but a happy ending to boot. Doesn't feel like that anymore.
Pastor Craig Groeschel of Life.Church recently recommended not "trying to change" but "training to change." I'm starting that today. Since God won't bring me home yet, I guess I'm supposed to stay here and do something other than panic and cry and assume the fetal position between workdays.
I was doing OK, but a recent event has knocked me back to pre-2020 anxiety levels. I don't like it. I don't want to live like this. I want that abundant life the Apostle Paul and Pastor Paul Sheppard talk about. If I have to be here, I'd like it to mean something.
I'm praying for you. For all of us. I'm training my brain to focus on Jesus the Savior and King and Coming Redeemer but it's really hard to feel that truth right now. I'd appreciate your prayers, too.
Keep the faith.