I'm taking a class about powerful prayer that involves creating a prayer journal. In this instance, journal connotes notebook for holding lists more than diary. Nothing wrong with that. Prayer is communicating with God, and talking is one means of communication.
When asked how our prayer efforts were going, I said I prefer to write out scriptures and prayers. I do. Something about using a nice pen on lined paper makes my heart sing and my mind focus. I mean, I have all those pens and that paper (what writer doesn't? Didn't we all start by drooling over blank journals and composition books in the school supply aisle?). Why not use them?
I suspect I am the only person in the group that does this. I'm likely also the only person who has only cats to talk to at home. C'est la vie.
Later, while illustrating a point, the teacher waved in my direction with: "If you're a writer..."
I had to smile. That sums it up, doesn't it? If you're a writer, you write. You write your prayers and your thoughts on scripture. You write blog posts, if that's your bent. You write business letters or short stories or fiction books. The written word is your medium, and you are as comfortable with it as a turtle in water.
After a million words of practice, and another million words or more of application, I am a writer. My first drafts are almost publishable. I would never do that, of course.
It's not that I don't write. It's that I no longer have the drive to write. I have some story ideas. I have the ability to write them down in a readable way. I just don't have the urgency I used to have. It's not a muse thing. I am too practiced to blame a muse's absence for lack of productivity. It's that I don't care anymore whether my stories get told.
I will write, because I'm a writer. What I will write is the question.
Applaud the jellyfish.