Look Up, Not Down

Another Beauty in the Browns suggestion. 

Depression lowers the head, the heart, the stomach, energy levels. Everything goes down. It's hard to look up, but you must. 

You must look up. 

Yesterday, I stumbled. Met a fact I didn't want to face. That fact could have swallowed me. 

Instead, I looked up. I looked at the sun. I looked at a world I so desperately want to leave, and decided I envy those who get to leave it. I will not mourn them. They rest in God's hands, no more worries, no more cares. Just loved by the Being of Light. 

I'll be there someday. Not today, alas. Someday. When God finally allows me to die. I can wait. 

I can look up. 

Keep the faith.